Child In The Dark ([info]angelsboi) wrote,
@ 2004-06-17 16:20:00
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To My Angel
So many things that I want to say, yet nothing I say will do him justice. I met Ryan on Sept 23, 2003. From the first moment I saw him til the last moment I was in love. He and I were unseperable from each other, we became boyfriends
then just 3 weeks ago we were married and let me tell you all that I was the one that made out in that marriage! I know he's in a better place but that doesnt take away the fact that he's not in my arms. We had so many plans for our futures,school, honeymoon in England, a place of our own..He was my tue angel he brought me back to life after a long period of time that i thought I'd never find anyone again. I was blessed to have him in my life and to share him with others. there is such a hole left in my heart now and I'm like a ship with out a rudder or air to help me sail onward..To his many many friends thank you for the thoughts prayers and words of comfort..Like a friend of mine and his said to me today(Danny).He may be gone and the world is darker without him in it but he is there with us in all our memories and surely watching down from above just waiting til we can all be together again.. With tears in my eyes and aching in my heart I want him and everyone to know that I loved and still lovess(our special word)
him with the full measure of my heart!!
TO MY BOO ROCK-BOO BOO SMOOCHES FROM PAPA BEAR



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[info]rainbow_boi_69
2004-06-17 02:33 pm UTC (link)
true love

and that is what lives after death, forever

you all are in my prayers

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[info]ravein
2004-06-17 03:34 pm UTC (link)
I never knew Ryan.. I am a friend of Ziggys and I saw her post. But what you said and all his friends said touched me.
Four years ago I lost my best friend suddenly. She was my daylight.. we had shared love, intimacy, living quarters, endless beers, and friendship.. and in the course of a few hours she was gone. I cried everyday for a year.. then at least once a week. Now it is only every once and a while. I guess I am telling you this because I want you to know what I have learned. It doesn’t get easier.. it just gets better.. and the memories more sweet. Your memories of Ryan are priceless and will bring you countless moments of joy. Hang on to them. My heart goes out to you and your family.. if you need someone to talk to.. A anonymous ear who understands feel free to e-mail me..
need4speed13420@yahoo.com
Selma

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My support
[info]fitnessboi
2004-06-17 03:46 pm UTC (link)
I am very sorry and heartbroken for your loss as it is never easy, and no one can truly understand unless they have been through it themselves. with that said, i can offer my prayers, support, and wishes to your future. It may not have been a long relationship but it is better to have love and lost, then never have been loved before. I hold true to that, b/c you both changed eachothers lives, and opened yourselfs up to everything love could ever offer. May you find comfort in other peoples peaceful wishes and thoughts.

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[info]ckluv76
2004-06-17 04:12 pm UTC (link)
OMG, im so sorry for your loss! i didn't know him much at all, but i would have liked to. he friended me a few months ago. my heart goes out to you and to his family. you are all in my thoughts and prayers.

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[info]doctorcaligari
2004-06-17 08:17 pm UTC (link)
Such love and such pain. I am so, so sorry. I wish the two of you had been able to live out that dream together just as you had planned. It sounds like a beautiful dream.

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[info]kali_magdalene
2004-06-18 03:05 am UTC (link)
You have all my sympathies. I knew Angelsboi from the gaymers mailing list and ENWorld (and Eric Noah's site before that). I didn't know him well, but I have been worried about him since learning he was HIV positive.

Again, all my sympathies.

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