Child In The Dark ([info]angelsboi) wrote,
@ 2004-06-19 04:15:00
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To my Angelboi, miss you lots. Kevin
Ever You and I
In the beginning there is you,without you I would
never have come to exist as the me I am today.
Within your eyes I saw the fiery blue waves of the sea,the mystery of a starlit sky and the depth
of a young mans soul. In your voice, I heard the silent winds of a dreamer,the laughter of angels
and the wishes of a soul that was pure.
Your touch brought life to every place it went,your touch your soul the very essence of your being.Your heart beat to a rhythm all its own
encompassing all that you are,yet gently touching all souls new and old. Within you,I saw and still see your pure bright shining soul a beacon for us all. Husband/Lover,brother,son,or friend you are and were a guide out of our darkness within.
Searching through the wonder of time,we were truly
blessed by your soul divine.
Two as One, hearts shared, lives intertwined,
memories warm and dreams of you will keep me safe from the coming gloom. With kisses and wishes to my Angelboi Boo I know I'll be seeing you in my dreams real soon.

Thanks Ryan for all you taught me and gave me in the short but sweet time I had you.XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
Love,Kevin(Papa bear)

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[info]belinus
2004-06-19 04:30 am UTC (link)
*hug*

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[info]android18sl
2004-06-19 07:20 am UTC (link)
big big Hugs.

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Im so sorry
[info]klmnop
2004-06-19 11:30 am UTC (link)
U don't know me...but reading this journal...and seeing what Ryan had to go through.....and what u all now have to live wiht....is breaking my heart.....Im crying...I'm so sorry..its so upsetting to know that such wonderful people must go through the worst of times...good luck wiht everything....U are in my thoughts... Just smile...and look at the best of everything....

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[info]tommyx
2004-06-19 12:15 pm UTC (link)
Kevin... as I told you the other night when I talked to you... if you need an ear I'm here for you. I've already been where you are at now and know how hard it is to deal with... how very hard it is indeed. Email me - tommyx@livejournal.com - and I'll give you my number (I forgot to give it to you when I talked to you). I don't care what time it is either... if you feel the need to talk to someone... call me.

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[info]ckluv76
2004-06-19 02:11 pm UTC (link)
*tear*

my heart breaks for you. ::HUGS::

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Good Night Sweet Prince
[info]thefaeryking
2004-06-19 05:16 pm UTC (link)



It is with profound sadness that We announce the
passing of Our friend Ryan Angelsboi, Knight Prince of
the Southern Sphere, Ruler Of the Willows, Chief
Scribe and Keeper Of The King's Records.

Ryan lost his battle with AIDS two nights ago. His
friend and companion, Kevin, informed me this
afternoon. Kevin really needs our prayers now. He was
loyal to his friend until the end.

Ryan was a favorite of the Gossamer Court because of
his tremendous courage in facing this illness that
ravaged his young body. He was infected by his first
partner, a rather sad excuse for a human being.

Courage is not about battlefields. it is about bout
the way that we live and in the end, die. I only hope
that when the real suffering begins for me, I am able
to find one quarter of the strength and courage that
Ryan faced his final days with.

It is an honor to have called such a brave, loving and
compassionate human being my friend.

After my heart attack and surgery he called me in the
hospital and at home every day, making sure wanted
for nothing. After my assault he put me in touch with
good people to talk me through the recovery process.

We never had he pleasure of meeting, but I knew him
better than many of those who are a part of my day to
day. His presence on this planet will be missed, as
will his writing and sweet voice of courage.

Please join the Gossamer Court at dusk tomorrow,
whereevr you are and say a little prayer for Ryan and
those young people reamaining who face an early demise
because of this terrible disease.

Many Blessings,
Yust

His Divine Y-Ness,
The Mystical, Magickal,
Yust II Oberon,
The Magnificent Naked Faery King

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[info]mistcat
2004-06-19 05:34 pm UTC (link)
You and all the others who grieve for him don't know me. But his life and words touched me and you have my condolences.

Go to www.poetry.com, Search for Mist Lea Reynolds and you find a poem there called Fly High. It's the best tribute to Angelsboi I could come up with.

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[info]equusk
2004-06-19 06:33 pm UTC (link)
To Kevin, and all those so very close to Ryan:

I am so very sorry for your loss. I didn't know Ryan as well as I wanted to, but, in the short time I knew him, Ryan was a truly remarkable person. My heart goes out to all those who are left behind.

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[info]retellit
2004-06-19 06:45 pm UTC (link)
Words can't express how sorry I am for the loss of Ryan. My love and sympathy goes out to all who knew and loved him.

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[info]xperiencetheglo
2004-06-19 09:12 pm UTC (link)
I never met/talked to you, but heard an awful lot about you.

you're in my thoughts and prayers <3

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Loss of a Great Man
(Anonymous)
2004-06-20 03:42 am UTC (link)
Hello Everyone,

I don't know any of you that are posting here, however I do know Kevin and I very much know Ryan. My name is Gordy and I live in Tucson, AZ and am Ryan's former Partner of 2 years.

Ryan came to me in October 27, 1990 just two days before his 20th birthday, I was with Ryan until December 23rd 2001 and Ryan left Arizona to move to Georgia in Feb 16th, 2002.

Ryan taught me many things in the two wonderful years that I was with him, he taught me compasion, he taught me how to be strong, he taught me to believe in my hopes and dreams but most of all he showed me how to love.

See shortly before I met Ryan my best friend of 5 years passed away due to the AIDS Virus and I was having a hard time getting over him, I decided that it was time for me to go out and meet people and that is when I met Ryan and he little did I know he would change my life . . . forever. During our relationship my Grandmother passed away from Diabitis and who was there for me? Ryan, by my side, and now, 4 years to the day that my grandmother passes, my sweet, loveable, charming and most undoubtedly caring Ryan passes.

You know, my only regret in life and I wished that I could have had the courage to tell him when he asked if I had any regrets of us parting was that I wished I never let him get on the plane to leave for Georgia.

I told Kevin that I wanted him to hear a song, as many of you know Ryan liked to use Lyrics as part of his many thoughts, well I would like to share that same song with ALL OF YOU. Please ALL go to www.gordy.org/kevin/escape_club.mp3 DOWNLOAD this song, listen to it, this is in my heart from Ryan to you.

I can honestly thank god above for giving me the most wonderful two years of my life with Ryan and I want to thank all of you for being such a wonderful friend to him, he deserved each and every one of you and he loved each and every one of you with all his heart.

Thanks a bunch
Many Blessings to you all
gordy
gordy@gordy.org

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Joy Will Find a Way
[info]fuzzbearmark
2004-06-20 06:02 am UTC (link)
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"Joy Will Find a Way"
(a song about dying)
.
Make me a bed of fond memories
Make me to lie down with a smile
Wverything that rises afterward falls
But all that dies has first to live.

As longing becomes love
As night turns to day
Everything changes
Joy will find a way

---Bruce Cockburn
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we all just dont know
[info]yourdannybear
2004-06-21 01:15 pm UTC (link)
when we'll go...

I dont even know any of these people but I read about it on my friend Joey's journal and I just had to see who this person was. I read his journal, I saw all the love from his friends and I also saw he loved Sarah McLachlan just like I do. It hit close to home that death is something very real, and that we all need to remind our loved ones that we are there and we do love.

Best wishes to you all.

Danny

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